How's the depression? Kicking my ass, thank you for asking. I keep having to stop up and remind myself to breathe every now and then, otherwise I'll forget. But, overall, I'm doing better than expected, and that's a good thing. I have more good days than bad ones, and even the bad days have good moments packed in there somewhere, so, yeah; I'm okay. I'm doing pretty good, all things considered. I'll make it through this.
Also, I got that appointment to the doctor that I have been meaning to get for months now, so now I'm going through a full check-up on every end. She - the doctor - pointed out to me that it could be actual physical reasons for why I'm not doing so well mentally, so we want to run every check we possibly can just to get an overlook on how my health is doing. Took about a gazillion blood tests that day, and this morning I was at the hospital for a cat scan (why the eff is it called a cat scan, anyway? Does our cats scan us, or what..?), and next week I'll be going back to the doctor for more tests and stuff. She was really amazing, by the way. I've been so lucky after changing to this doctor's office, cause the people there are actually caring and making sure I feel like I'm being taken seriously. They're really amazing! So, yeah, I'm feeling very much at ease now, regarding that matter.
Other than that, I'm just taking things easy. I'm good at distracting myself when I'm not doing too good, cause I know thinking about it too much will just make matters worse. So I turn my focus towards my companions and my work and allow them to completely and utterly swallow me. I'm currently obsessing over one of my most recent RP characters - Olivia - cause she's just being absolutely wonderful to obsess over. Her cheerful personality really helps me stay floating, so just working on doodling her and writing down stuff about her is really helpful for me. And, what do you know, she's helped me actually complete something!
Anyone whom knows me know that I have a bad habbit of never really finishing anything. I start about a gazillion projects a day, but I never finish any of them. But, the other day I actually finished a proper drawing - a bustshot of Olivia - and just days after that I actually finished her full profile. It totally blew my mind, that, seeing as it's been ages since I've managed to finish a proper drawing, and I don't think I've EVER managed to finish a character profile before. All in all, I'm satisfied as fuck! It's all thanks to Olivia being so amazingly easy to work with, cause she's a dream to write and I enjoy doodling her - she just keeps blowing my mind!
I'm totally absorbed with her, but I don't mind, cause she keeps me going~
And I'm gaming, of course. Got reminded of a game I have - Dark Chronicle - the other day, and I just had to go dig it out and take it for a spin again. I had forgotten how amazingly awesome that game is! It contains quite a lot of the things I really love - most specifically two things; time travel, and designing things (you get to build towns, omg!) - and it also have the most awesome-looking train EVER! Which fits really neatly with the main RP I'm doing with a friend of mine (where I play Olivia), since they travel around on a train there. I think I'm developing a fondness for trains. XD
But, yeah, all in all? I've got good distractions to keep my mind focused, so even though I'm getting my ass kicked, I'm quick to get back up on my feet whenever I get knocked down. I got my head above the water so far, so no need to worry; I'll be fine.
